The reason I created this blog is because I feel like I've been so blessed to have the chance to try again to bring another baby into this world and I want to share every moment with everyone and anyone . My eyes have been opened to just so much over the past few years and I want other's to know what I've learned and I want to take the opportunity God has created for me to share and hopefully inspire others through my babies.
Over the past nine months since Tucker went to heaven, I have thought, thought and thought some more until I just about drove myself insane. And after much prayer and meditation I came to the conclusion that I wanted to try again. My desire to be a mother is so strong and has been there since I was little, and I just can't see myself giving up. Although I wish everyone could see the faith God built me up with after each lose that lead me to the place I am today, I can only try to find the words to express through each blog as we go along this next seven months together.
When I lost Tucker my first thought was to run away and go through my next pregnancy with JD without having to "put" everyone through this heartbreak again if it happened. But as I thought about it more and more there was many reasons why this wouldn't work. Many people have entered this journey and felt my joy, discouragement, heartbreak, and courage to try again each time pregnancy came and went. At this point the network of people that have heard my story is huge, and I want to make it even bigger... I want to take this opportunity to create the biggest prayer and support network possible. ANYthing is possible with God and he has allowed the devil to win the past two times but the devil will learn soon, if he hasn't already, that this girl doesn't give up and she's got a huge army behind her who won't either! Even though this pregnancy may end in tragedy once again, that's a risk I'm willing to take, and just can't help but take this time to increase other's faith if this little one enters our world. And my oh my will that be a great day to give God the glory, and that's something I don't want to miss out on by putting this pregnancy on the "down low". Isn't that what the devil would want this fear to do to us, hide it and just hope and pray by the skin of our teeth and miss out on bringing everyone along if we succeed, putting all our faith and trust in the Lord... The devil has taken too much it's time to go full throttle and pray like we've never prayed before! Yes, according to this world, our "odds" may not be that high on succeeding with this child, but I can't seem to find God using the word "odds" in his word. If God has planned on this happening it's going to happen no matter our earthly odds.
And finally I have created this blog so that everyone can keep updated all together on my pregnancy, that way I'm not being bombarded with questions, concerns and opinions about it to me or my family. I feel like I have to tell everyone how I feel and "justify" my reasoning behind trying again, but I dont, and that wears me out emotionally. I think it's great for everyone to know why I just don't want to repeat it all 1,000 times this round ;) you understand right....? I look forward to all of you reading my blogs and sending your love and prayers my way!
