New Year, this is gonna be a great year!

First let me start by giving an update from my 11 week appointment last week where myy little baby through me through my first "faith loop". The nurse couldn't find the baby's heartbeat while using the fetal Doppler to locate the heartbeat for the first time over my tummy. Now I was on the verge of being able to hear it like that since the baby is still so little but apparently they still hear it that early all the time. After a few minutes of trying she sent me into the sonogram room to get it that way, and of course it came up right away. :) The tech said it's because I have an anterior placenta (the placenta is in the front, cushioning the baby and my tummy), so it's harder to find the heartbeat through it. This is quite normal, just means it may make my amniocentesis a little harder to do and as long as it's not covering my c-section incision, my c-section shouldn't be to much of a problem. I didn't get to talk to my Dr about it since she was out of town but I did some of my own research. It also means I won't feel the baby as early as I would without it being anterior... I think something even this small, not even considered an issue, will still make me rely on God that much more, and I'm okay with that. I'd pick Him to fully be in control over me any day, and that He always is! :) My other pregnancies never really through me through any loops and so the opposite gives me hope in a sense. This little one isn't going to come peacefully and quietly as the boys, and that I look forward to.
    Although I became very sick on New Year's Eve, it still didn't put a dent on the way this year made me feel. I see it as the last hit the devil was giving me as the year ended, like well take that, but he obviously doesn't have much left on me. I've totally got him out of this year and my life, he's not going to ruin this year for me. Although I don't see him as defeating me this year, he sure made it pretty close to a living nightmare as he could. In the end I had the victory because I clung to God and He got me through it, and never left my side. I grew so close to Him this year, faith just started pouring out of my heart and into my mind giving me so much strength and hope. So much that I went from not even wanting to try again to trying again and starting a new pregnancy. And tomorrow will be the first day of my last week of the first trimester! I can't wait to see the changes that come this next couple of months as I find out the sex and the results of the genetic testing done at the end of this month. To feeling the baby kick and watching my tummy really grow to where people start asking the loaded question... "oh is this your first?" Here we go again... :)