Taking control

   Lately I have really been down in the dumps. I have always based my ideas of myself by what everyone else thinks... and I'm trying hard to figure out why this is. I'm sick of constantly trying to decipher what everyone else thinks of me and let it bring me down. The older I get the less confident as a person I feel, and the less important. Why? The more I think about my life and the events I've been through, the more I wonder what my purpose is here on Earth and who the heck I am. I'm so sick of thinking I'm not good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough, and bla bla bla! From now on I want to work on building confidence in myself, and creating the person I want to be, instead of waiting around for other's to convince me I am. But how do you go about this? I've created such bad habits in my thinking that I feel trapped in my own mind sometimes. I've got to start going after my dreams and making them come true. If I'm always trying to bring glory to God in everything I do, then I'll He'll give me the strength and courage to do them, just as He always has. If I've learned anything from the struggles I went through becoming a mom, it's that God believed in me enough to get me there. I know my possibilities are endless with Him as my Father and leader. I'm sick of sitting around not feeling like enough, its time to make MYSELF proud. I'm going to press forward with all my might to make this girl the best she wants to be... YOLO! As much as I hate that acronym I feel it appropriate at this moment in time! :)  By the way, that girl down there is ME and I think she's pretty awesome!!